Where to start.... Well. I can't seem to figure out why there are huge spaces in the middle of my last post. So annoying! But I've tried to edit it and it looks just fine until I post. Then it goes all crazy. Last Thursday we went to my Dad's work for the West Valley City Halloween Party. The kids got to show off for grandpa at his work. Then they got to go trick or treating and pick out a pumpkin. Went super fast and was lots of fun.

Last Saturday was Halloween. A super wet Halloween, but we still had fun. we went out at about 5 and it started pouring rain. Thank heaven I went out and bought 3 umbrellas earlier in the day. We went out anyway cause we still had some day light and it was still warm. We didn't think the rain was going to stop at all according to the weather so we figured we'd be wet and warm instead of wet and cold. We tried to have Xander in the stroller but it go completely soaked and getting him in and out while trying to hold an umbrella was a joke. So. Dan and I took turns carrying him while the other pushed the stroller. Thankfully Addi walked just fine most of the time and held her own umbrella. Xander dropped his bucket (thankfully early on in our excursion) and so we tried to carry if for him. He wasn't having any of that. He wanted to do it himself. We finished at about 7 and at about that time it stopped raining. Just our luck. All well. The kids had fun and it was certainly a Halloween to remember.

Xander was Growling

Ready to go out in the rain!

This last week has been a really productive one. I've been able to get a lot done around the house and ready for winter. Tuesday I cleaned out the garage and hung a few shelves and put all the dangerous stuff up high. I also mowed the lawn. Wednesday I finally re caulked the counter top in the kitchen that runs along the outside wall. We had it crack last winter and then one of the real estate agents from reliance came out to try and fix it. Well rather than fix it he used the wrong color and type of caulk. He didn't even take the old stuff off so it looked horrible!! So. I had to take all the caulk of and repaint since it pealed some of it off, and then I recaulked. Doesn't look as good as the first time but better than what the Realtor did. Then, Thursday, I washed the car inside and cleaned out the street gutters. They were full of rock and dirt from us doing the sprinklers. The lawn also got treated but Trugreen so I watered it for the last time. All we have to do now is blow out the system and clean out two windo wells and we are done!! Thank heaven I got everything done since now I have the fall cold. It started yesterday and I feel pretty crappy now.

My mom watched our kids yesterday so we could go to the temple. We hadn't been in a very long time. The deal was I'd help her rake her leaves today since she watched them. I'm not gonna chicken out but when I'm done I'm gonna come home and crash.

We found out on Wednesday that my brother Walter and his wife are gonna have a baby boy in March. We are so excited!!! This is the first grand kid on my side of the family that isn't my kid. They will be naming him Abram Thomas Weidner.

My sister Michelle is out of the hospital but is refusing to cooperate or continue on the program they set up for her. Kinda frustrating cause she didn't stick with it when she went in to the anorexia center last time either. I just wonder when this is gonna end and hope it doesn't end badly. I confronted her on it and told her to quit chickening out on everything. Give the program a chance to work before you say it doesn't. She just blew up at me and yelled. So frustrated trying to deal with her rationally when she doesn't deal with reality like a normal person cause she is sick. She hates being treated like a teenager but that is how she acts. I told her that too and she didn't like hearing it. I have a lot of conflicting feelings when it comes to her. Sometimes I just don't want to care cause it is too frustrating and exhausting, but I can't just not care. As much as it would be easier I can't do it. In a lot of ways I'm really ANGRY! Angry she doesn't listen, angry she is hurting herself and in turn hurting those who love her, and angry that I can't fix it or change things. I'm sick of the roller coaster. Sick of thinking she is really honestly trying to get better and then finding it is all a lie. This anorexic disease is all about lies and I hate lies!!!! I hate that I can't trust anything she says. I hate the manipulation. I'm just to tired. I can't imagine how my parents feel right now. They have expended sooooo much time, energy, and money on trying to help her and nothing works. That the other thing. I hate to see how much my parents are hurting and how exhausted they are. Now that I'm a parent I understand a little better the love you have for your children. Even when they hurt you. You'd do anything to make sure they are safe and happy. It is just so hard to watch it all. Well. Enough of this. I've vented enough.

So. On a positive note, I've started shopping for Christmas already and the kids are just about done. This year we decided to draw names on both sides of the family as far as the siblings are concerned so that makes things a lot easier. Just have to figure out what to get the parents on both sides.

Well. I lost my keys last week and still haven't been able to find them. I'm also missing my credit card. I'm not quite sure where they are or where to look. I think Xander hid them. I've searched the entire house and cleaned everything twice and still haven't found them. I wonder if Xander threw them in the garbage and I threw them out without knowing it. I found out that a new key would cost 48 bucks. We also found out that we have to replace our tires. I hate how expenses come in droves. We also got our property taxes. They didn't escrow enough so we have to pay 500 dollars more. ARGH! Thank heaven for savings.